what should i do?

i'm so sien with everything..... everythings around me..... but i want work under government department, so i must study hard. i must successful in my future, although i dun score any A in my SPM, but i won't abdicate so easily! who say college students not clever enough, who say that college students use money to buy certificate!? I WILL ATTEST FOR ALL OF U C ! College students also have their own ability to score in exam. who say only from Maktab Perguruan students can be  government teacher job?! not fair! not fair! i'm so enmity but i swear i will beat down U! 我是不会低头的， 支持我吧